The rebirth

After my weekend of retreat and cleansing here before you is a new person. A person that is collecting, taking inventory, and discarding the things that are not important toward my complete happiness. I want to free myself of all the negative energy that exist in my life that has brought me to this place of not loving me enough. It is interesting when in thought you learn what matters the most and you know that you must be the person that you were intended to be regardless of what anyone thinks of it. These are the things that I am certain of regarding myself:

I'm black, educated, free, wise beyond my years, tall, loved, a woman, a daughter, a niece,a granddaugther,a leader,a follower,a mentor,a cousin,a sister, a lesbian, loyal, a friend, a believer, and me.

I realized a few things throughout the duration of my trip: (1)I lived for some many but never myself first. (2) I must live for me first before I can add to anyone else life in which God places people in my life that will add to my life as I will to theirs. (3) I search for an inner peace that exist only in me, the search rest here, so I work toward finding that peace and internal happiness, that you feel when life is right and energy is only positive. (4) Believing that my soul knows what is best for me and stop second guessing how I care for me. (5) Defining friend to fit only a selected few,remembering that everyone is not my friend. (6) Continuing to love with my whole being and never let anyone take that from me.

Thank you to the woman that helped me to see myself completely for the first time and began the process of loving me. I know we as human beings are not perfect but somehow you manifest the impossible. I truly see God in you and everything that you produce to the world. It is an honor knowing you and a privilege to call you my friend.

Thank you to my mother who has provided this foundation for me to love so simply and freely. Thank you for sacrificing so much of yourself for me, you are my strength and the reason why I will continue to be the success that I am meant to be and produce to the world the gifts that you have allowed me the opportunity to learn, grow, and develop all on my own. When I think of you I realize how truly blessed I am.

Thank you to Father who tries to be the father that his father never was. You had no blueprint to what it looks like and you did the very best you could.You have your own hurt that you deal with and I understand. I forgive because you are my father, I love you because you made me, I represent love.

Thank you to my friend Victor, you are my hero!!! You have a contagious presence that oozes authenticity and positivity.You are what being real is. In such a short amount of time we have into this relationship that is close and real. I trust you with my life, thank you for your energy and warm, loving spirit. You are God-like.