I have to move away!!! LOL... yes, it's the inevitable. I must branch out into the unknown world and evolve into the person that I am intended to be. One of my dear friends who loves to quote Oprah says that "The whole point of being alive is to evolve into the complete person you were intended to be." This is my mission now, head on. It is quite the revelation to come to terms with the reality that I never truly knew myself. I have been dwelling in my "shell" (also from my dear friend) for majority of my life. I have grown complancent with the person I have allowed myself to beleive I am, now it is up to me to become the person I am meant to be. The person that my spirit knows and loves therefore loving me and accepting me as I am.
I have never thought of myself as much of a religious person but today I had a discussion with my friend about God and how I beleive the force has lead me to this point in my life that I must acknowledge that first, I was never completely happy with my life as is and two, that I have every right to be happy on my terms, I am what is important. I had convinced myself that to say that I needed to take care of me and focus on me was selfish. But ALL of my life I have made others happy by the choices that they believed were best for me. Mostly because these people are my family members,close friends and significant other and I trust them and think that they know what's best for me, but at no point did that stop and I come into my own on who I was. Now, I'm at a point in my life where I don't trust myself with myself but I have to take a chance becuase I know in 40 years I will regret what I have made of my life if I don't.
So in saying all of these,I have decided to move to Maryland, I have a few friends that live there that I hope to stay with for a short time until I find employment and than get my own place and contiune my life on my terms and no one elses. It's unfortuante how this came to be, that I will share with you at a later date...
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