Too much off the top

I have been doing some retrospective thinking this morning on how things are going with my new job, which for the record I love. One thing I have definitely noticed and take full responsibility for is that I have to tone down on my enthusiastic, overwhelming,inappropriate behavior with my co-workers. It is safe to say that I have become very comfortable in my new environment, and even more comfortable with my co-workers, which on the grand scale will at some point be a concern for those that I work closely with because no one will know how to say that I have crossed a line, yet I will be at worst fired or officially reprimanded for my behavior.

I have to remind myself that this is a job first and an opportunity for me to expand on my understanding and knowledge of what I love to do That is help motivate, educate, and generate young people to take action and be the change that the world needs the most and that will make a permanent mark on society. My passion for motivating young people to take responsibility and find the true meaning for their existence is something that even I still work at on a daily basis. I want to make it clear to myself that I am just a student that wants to teach what I've learned, not a teacher that knows what to teach and hopes that those taught have learned. However, I have to remind myself daily of this, which is why I believe I have people in my life that help to keep me in check. I have to remind myself that this is a profession, a part- time one, but a profession none the less. I want to make it crystal clear that what they may allow as acceptable from each other will not be necessarily taken in the same stride of myself. I have to believe that these people like me, but at any point will become offended,intimidated, overwhelmed, annoyed, or at the very worst frightened by my natural state of being.

From this day forward I will be more consciously aware of my surroundings, the comments I make to my co-workers,and the even the seemingly harmless inappropriate comments made to me by my co-workers. I will be focus on the task at hand to help open,explore, and build on the minds of the young people that I have the pleasure to work and grow with , and learn from. Also, I don't want to possibly loss my job because I got to comfortable to quickly and as a result be set as the example of sexual harassment within the workplace. I digress my intensity, compulsiveness, and crude behavior and I take this experience with a humble heart, an open mind to learn from some of the most brilliant people I have the privilege to work with, and a opportunity to exercise my knowledge and skills on marginalized group of individuals that I will have the ability to go out into the working world and make the ultimate and permanent change that I see for the world.

I thank God for this chance to truly feel that I am apart of the change and the evolution of my complete self that I was intended to be.